Do you know this sensation of something not feeling 100% right? But reason tells you that you should feel like it is? So you say Yes, and you tell yourself over and over again, that you really do feel like saying Yes. Because you don’t know why you don’t feel like Yes. You believe you need to legitimize a No, but you can’t – so you just say Yes.
I know that. There’s this quiet little voice whispering „No, No, No“ or „Are your sure?“ while my conditioning, my beliefs and my logic are trying to convince it to switch to Yes. The silent whisper is my gut feeling, my intuition, my sense of authenticity and honesty, my true and deep self. And I am learning to listen to that silent whisper.
Way too often we make decisions that deny this part of ourselves. Because we live in a culture where everything needs proof, validation and a logical reason.
Today, I made a choice to stay true to what my gut feeling was telling me. I chose to speak my truth no matter the reaction. I chose to „change my mind“ even though I had agreed to do something. From the beginning on, agreeing didn’t feel right. I felt that it wasn’t my full truth to say Yes but I made a compromise because I thought I needed to conform, I thought it would be worth it. I degraded the feeling of No that I had and tried to push myself into a 100%-Yes, which – of course – didn’t work.
But I said No, finally.
It’s never too late. And next time, maybe, I will listen to the little whisper earlier because it creates much less conflict, effort and disappointment.